A Letter from Latinx/CLS Faculty to Latinx Students at MSU

Queridxs Estudiantes,

We, Latinx and Chicano/Latino Studies Professors at Michigan State University, stand in solidarity with you, our students. We have borne witness to your struggles, your exhaustion, your hunger, your frustration, your doubts, your tears, and your unwavering dedication to justice.

We recognize that Latinx students and the Chicano/Latino Studies Program have long legacies of activism on this campus. In the spirit of that radical tradition we write to support your efforts to make sustainable spaces for Latinxs and Latinx Studies at MSU. In doing so, you actively transform the white supremacist, heteropatriarchal, cisgender, and elitist culture of the academy, and undermine the structures of exclusion that attempt to render invisible your realities.

We represent many experiences, beliefs, and journeys, but for many of us, your experience is our experience. Histories of oppression and violence connect us. You, first generation student, fifth generation student, are the reason we are here. You, native, (im)migrant, U.S. born student speaking Indigenous languages, or spanish, or english, or a symphony of these, are the reason we are here. You, whose family may not understand the obstacles you face at this university, are the reason we are here. You, lesbian, gay, bisexual, queer, trans*, gender nonconforming student, are the reason we are here. You Afro-Latinxs, Latinxs Indigenxs, are the reason we are here. The marginalization of one of us, is the marginalization of all of us.

We stand to witnesses your fierce resistance.  

We recognize the danger that you face when hate speech is equated to free speech and when that hate speech and accompanying violence is normalized in the public political arena and on our campus. We condemn the hateful rhetoric spewed by the current republican nominee while recognizing the perilous politics of the democratic nominee.

We support your demands for increased representation on campus and more Latinx faculty, staff, peers, and resources. Our Latinx community is overburdened in attending to the immense academic, emotional, and practical needs of one another. We recognize that the university does not acknowledge nor value this labor and erases our contributions.

We stand in awe of your complex coalition building and your resistance to tactics that attempt to disentangle your struggles with those of Indigenous, Black, and other oppressed peoples. You are the light and the continuation of a centuries-long struggle. In you we see ourselves, our ancestors, our future.

We want to join our voices with yours at this critical time. We love you. We stand with you. We believe in the strength of your convictions and collective action. We promise to keep fighting alongside you.

Suyxs en la lucha,

Yomaira C. Figueroa, English/AAAS/CLS

Delia M. Fernandez, History/CLS

Sheila M. Contreras, English/CLS

Diana Rivera, MSU Libraries Cesar E. Chavez Collection

Sandra Crespo, Education, CLS Board

Isabel Ayala, Sociology/CLS

Kristine Byron, Spanish/CLS/GenCen

Vanessa M. Holden, History

Riyad A. Shahjahan, Education

Maribel Santiago, Education

Danny Méndez, RCS/GSAH

Estrella Torrez, Residential College in the Arts and Humanities

Scott Michaelsen, English/CLS

Dylan AT Miner, RCAH and American Indian and Indigenous Studies

Juan Javier Pescador, History

Gabriela Alfaraz, Spanish/RCS

Miguel Cabañas, RCS/CLS/GSAH

Leslie D. Gonzales, Education

Sara Fingal, Lyman Briggs College and History

Sandro R. Barros, Education

Xhercis Mendez, Philosophy/AAAS

Eric Gonzalez Juenke, Political Science and Chicano/Latino Studies

 Juan Flores, Office of Cultural and Academic Transitions    

Erin Graham, History

Steve Cleaves-Jones, Interdisciplinary Studies

Patricia Joly, Migrant Student Services

Emily Villegas, Migrant Student Services

Ryan Kimberauskas, Natural Sciences

Jessica Oyoque, Migrant Student Services

Ron Fisher, Social Sciences

Thomas Jefferson Page, Eli Broad College of Business

Elias Lopez, Migrant Student Services

Rubén Martinez, JSRI

Sean Valles, Lyman Briggs College and Philosophy

Rafael Marinez, MSU-COM

Joshua Slivensky, Communication Arts and Sciences

Matthew D’Alesio, Student Life

Aleksander Oslapas, Advertising

Edilberto (Ed) Montemayor, Emeritus, School of Human Resources and Labor Relations

Osvaldo Hernandez, Center for Integrative Studies in General Science

*We are are responding to our student's righteous demand for faculty support in their struggles for justice and equity on MSU's campus.  We are inspired by their work and by the letters of support written for students of color across the country including the "Open letter of Love to Black Students: #BlackLivesMatter", the "Open Letter to Students of Color at Yale from Alumni/ae of Color", "An Open Letter to Afro-Latinxs: You Are Enough and It’s Okay to Have Questions", and countless others. 

**If  you are a Latinx faculty at Michigan State University and you would like to sign this letter please click on this link and add your name and department/affiliation: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1yk5BXHdHl9HJiT7fe_DyzM9-o9qDd9LfewkUw5OfNDM/edit?usp=sharing

in a time of love and fury [part 1]

ONE.

"tell them that she even though she called the police a few times when he hit her she would [later] drop the charges. [we] could not use [that evidence] in court. he got away with murder." 

Vanessa Otero, 21, oldest daughter, second of four children, kind, intelligent, beautiful, funny, popular, serious, diligent, loving. Vanessa at 21: a junior studying Psychology at Jersey City State and working part-time, a daughter mourning the recent loss of her father, a sister/cousin/niece, the delight of the family, a newlywed who lived with her husband of two years above the laundromat owned by his parents. Vanessa was 21 when she was killed in 1997, a bullet from a sawed-off shot gun pierced the right side of her forehead. Vanessa whose casket was positioned so the left side of her body faced the mourners because the stitching on the fatal wound could not be hidden. Vanessa whose famously long curls were shorn to the shoulder, a necessary cut we were told, in the failed effort to save her life. Vanessa's husband Jose Mendoza had arrived from his DJ gig drunk, violent, ready to fight. Knocky, his best friend, told us later that Jose had planned the murder: 'i'm going to kill her tonight' he'd said while they unloaded his equipment from the car and brought it up the two flights to the apartment where Vanessa had been sleeping. Knocky, the only one to hear these words, precursors to the events minutes later, lied on the witness stand, 'he loved her more than anything' he said.  Jose served six years. This is a refusal to bear witness. 

I search online for the news stories, look for the obituary, try to find the reports, and I come up empty-handed. I click page after page, but the internet, it seems, has scrubbed clean what I remember very clearly: being woken up by mami whispering, 'mataron a Vanessa,' and walking to the laundromat by moon-and-street light, waiting for answers. I remember my father, unmoored by the loss of his niece, his suffering only an echo of her mother's and siblings' pain. I remember the line for Vanessa's wake wrapping around 6th and Washington Street and my family inconsolable for all the accompaniment in grief. I remember the reporters and cameras and the papers with photos and the stories about the girl who was so loved in Hoboken. I remember that her burial was on picture day, that I went to school in the afternoon to sit red-and-swollen eyed for my 8th grade photo, that after school my best friend Dana and I went to get a slice of pizza at Benny's where two men joked about how 'the girl probably deserved it' and how she 'probably cheated'. This too, is a refusal to bear witness. 

I asked my aunt for permission to write about Vanessa here. She wants you to know that Vanessa called the police on multiple occasions. Jose had a history of hitting her, threatening her, and she was afraid. She wants you to know that Vanessa dropped the charges every time, that those reports couldn't be used in court. We know that her in-laws, the Mendoza's, knew more than anyone else: they heard the fighting, saw the bruises, negotiated with the police, pleaded for Jose to stop. They'd told Vanessa to leave, to be careful, but they too lied on the stand. This is a refusal to bear witness. 

There were so many possible witnesses to these violences against Vanessa. We know that there is more to Vanessa's life than what the official transcripts and court-documents could ever tell us. We, who hold the memory of her, were not there on the night of October 25th.

 It has been nearly nineteen years since Vanessa. I search and cannot find her. 

TWO.

"The avoidable tragedies of Baton Rouge, Louisiana and Falcon Heights Minnesota - and other places we don't happen to have cameraphone footage of."

[NY Magazine 10 July 16. Approval Matrix: Highbrow/Despicable]

When I heard the news of  the murders of Alton Sterling and Philando Castile I was thousands of miles away from Baton Rouge and Falcon Heights.* I was away in Europe and the distance removed me from the immediacy of the mourning, the vigils, protests, the reeling punctuated by love and fear and fury. I witnessed this tumult of feeling from afar, trying to come to terms with how digital technology provided an ability to witness these deaths on social media sites in the form of automatic rolling videos and still photos. Horror on loop. And even as this footage showed so explicitly the violation of human life, many viewers engaged in an act of refusal. Instead of bearing witness to these murders, the video evidence was wielded against the dead over and again in op-eds comments sections, and conservative media (yes, I regularly dive into the chasm of the comments section, but I never feed the trolls). 

Then on August 1st: Korryn Gaines, a 23-year old mother murdered by police as she cradled her 5-year old son in her arms. Her child, the sole witness, was also shot. Then on August 2nd, news outlets reported the murder of 23-year old  Joyce Quaweay, beaten to death by her husband and his best friend (now former police officers) in front of her two daughters ages 2 and 10-months. There is no footage for Korryn and Joyce and Vanessa. For them we must make the choice to faithfully witness that which can never be seen. We are well versed in this labor. 

We stand at an intersection: state-sponsored and intimate violence. 

How do we witness faithfully at this intersection? In light of widely circulated footage? In the face of refusal? In instances where there is no camera or no documentation? 

THREE.

What do we call this labor? A labor of love and fury. An ethics beyond coloniality. 

In my most recent academic writing (forthcoming) on Latinx Caribbean decolonial feminist thought and women of color feminisms, I propose that what fuels us toward radical relational decolonial praxes is "love and fury." That is, a love of one another across difference, a decolonial love steeped in differential consciousness that strives toward myriad forms of liberation, and a fury ignited by the living realities of coloniality (gender, power, being, knowledge, etc.). 

In the face of state and intimate violence we are told that the "smoking gun" evidence of brutality, of surrender met with mercilessness, can supposedly induce sympathy from the viewing (and purportedly believing) public, and in some imaginaries leads to more reasonable uses of force. And yet, we know that even seeing is not believing when privilege and power (re)write the scripts.  But, faithful witnesses have believed before the ubiquitous video, they remember the evidence that never made it to trial, they read against the tropes that render us eliminable. We have been faithful watchers without having to see.

We know the value of their lives over and against the faulty litmus tests of doubted digital footage, refusals to bear witness, and incomplete archives. In a time of love and fury, which branches farther than our imaginaries, we can choose to be faithful witnesses.  

FOUR.

Vanessa's life and death is scrubbed from the internet, there is no trace of her there. We don't know who she would be now, but we can imagine that she'd be a more beautiful and loving version of herself. 

Notes:

* I was attending an intensive lecture series on Equatorial Guinea in Madrid and later attending the Dialogo Global, a decolonial dialogues seminar in Barcelona.

** The term 'love and fury' bears a striking resemblance to the term 'love and rage' or 'amor y rabia' which is linked to revolutionary and anarchist movements (including the Zapatistas). This term of 'love and rage' also came up in the Dialogo Global (see previous note) during the lectures of Nelson Maldonado-Torres. My use of the term does not have any known relation to those contexts but rather emerged in January 2016 while I was writing an article on the relationship between postcolonial and decolonial feminisms. In talking about the kinds of oppressions we respond to as decolonial feminist thinkers and activists, I began to feel frustrated and feverish as if there was a ball of fire in my chest and throat, and it was there that the idea for 'fury' came along with with 'love' because it is only through, with, and for love that we can endure such pain. 

on faithful witnessing

My article, "Faithful Witnessing as Practice," was a project years in the making. Early in my graduate program (UC Berkeley, Ethnic Studies) I was exposed to the work of decolonial theorists, the possibilities of Ethnic Studies as heresy, and philosophy from the 'underside of modernity'. One of the texts we read was Maria Lugones' Peregrinajes/Pilgrimages (2003) wherein she briefly introduces the politics of faithful witnessing before shifting focus to the crux of her text on decolonial feminist philosophy.

I was moved by the concept of faithful witnessing, jolted by the formulation of the act on paper and struck by its significance in my own life. How do we witness faithfully? When have we been witnesses, for how long, and to what? And most importantly, how do we interpret what we witness? I wrestled with these questions in the context of my own lived experiences as the daughter of Puerto Rican migrants, as a product of a working-poor family and community, and as the living legacy of colonial subjectship. Over the past few years I have written about faithful witnessing as a literary trope in the work of Afro-Latinx and Equatoguinean writers and have discussed what it means to be a faithful witness to history in my Ethnic Studies and Latino & Caribbean Studies courses at Berkeley and Rutgers.

This spring I was invited to give the keynote lecture at CSU Fullerton for International Women's Day. It was in that context that I first shared publicly some of my own experiences of faithful witnessing. My goal was to show how we can take ideas from the page to better examine our lives, or better yet, to share how decolonial feminisms and women of color feminist philosophy take seriously the experiences of people on the 'underside of modernity' and make space for them to be engaged as knowledge. 

I told three anecdotes, one of which I will excerpt below, and then explained what was violent/dangerous about the encounters, who acted as a faithful witness, and why these kinds of interventions matter:

1. The first example was about the commitment to transformative justice in the face of domestic violence - an ethics that I was was aligned with as a personal politic but knew little of as a concept until I attended an incredible talk by Mia Mingus.  
2. I then discussed my experience as an Afro-Puerto Rican graduate student doing field work in Madrid and Barcelona. I shared how my body politic and Caribbean inflected Spanish was interpreted on the streets of Madrid and how one of my interviewees in Barcelona acted as a faithful witness on my behalf.  
3. The third example (excerpted below) was about my time working as a medical interpreter when I was an undergraduate. That experience underscored the reality of medical ethics and cultural competency at the intersections of community clinics, undocumented migration, and institutional/structural racism. 

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"My job at the free clinic was to be an interpreter between the patients, mostly undocumented Mexican and Latino families, and the doctors. Like many first-generation Latinx children, I spent a lot of time as a child interpreting for my mother at the welfare office, with school officials, and between my father and the landlord of our tenement. Through those experiences I witnessed first-hand the racism, disregard, and lack of compassion that working-poor and immigrant families faced in these institutional/academic/residential spaces. My training at the clinic instructed me to interpret word-for-word the patient’s symptoms and the doctor’s directives. So for example, if the patient said “me duele el estomago,” I would tell the doctor, “my stomach hurts.”  Many mothers came to the clinic with their children and whenever they explained symptoms like headaches, faint breathing, and stomach pains, the doctor would inevitably say “they need to stop feeding the kid so many tortillas” or “limit the tortillas.” As a medical interpreter I was not allowed to interject or to clarify the directive of the doctor or offer more than a direct translation of the tortilla directive. One day a Dominican mother came to the clinic with her son, suffering from similar symptoms. The doctor listened for a minute and said “tell them that the son needs to stop eating so many tortillas.”  Now, because I was Puerto Rican I knew that tortillas were not a staple of my neighboring islanders' diets. I turned to the doctor and said, “Dr. they are Dominican, they don’t eat tortillas" but he instructed me again to translate the 'limit the tortilla message'. The boy's mother then told me to translate “we don’t eat tortillas” but within a few seconds the doctor was ready to move on. This tortilla story is somewhat funny (if you are familiar with difference amongst Latinxs) but also illuminates the kinds of structural and institutional violence that affects people of color and especially women and children which represented the majority of the patients seen in these spaces.

So, how is this violence? The medical institution was exposing families to harm by reducing their illnesses to dietary causes and by making sweeping assumptions about the cultural practices of their Latinx patients - most of which were women and children, an already vulnerable population. Who are the witnesses in this context? Due to the intimate and protected nature of medical care bilingual medical interpreters, health care advocates, and the patients themselves (perhaps child translators in tow) would be some of the few people who could bear witness to these structures of oppression. However, what is important here is not only the possibility of seeing oppression, but also the politics of how we interpret what we witness. Due to my own experience as a child translator on the one hand, and college student on the other, I recognized the difference in treatment depending on the patient's racial/ethnic/class status. What are some possible interventions? I recognize now that at 19 years-old I had a limited perspective on what I could do to help thus, I did not have a method beyond translating to the best of my ability and attempting to develop methods of circumventing the doctors' disregard by further dialoguing with the patients in small and hidden ways. In retrospect, I could have potentially reached out to other translators, clinic staff, and/or tried to access resources to bridge the divide and help build cultural competence or advocated for more Latinx doctors and staff."

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This clinic experience was the example that most resonated with the students at CSU Fullerton, (a designated Hispanic-Serving Institution), and after my talk many of them shared similar stories. Translating was a formative experience for me as a child and became an act through which I could bear witness to, and attempt to disrupt, the disrespect and oppression that my parents faced. As a young adult in the clinic, I was witness to the kinds of oppression and lack of care these families faced and this too shaped my worldview. Now as a professor at Michigan State University, a researcher, and a writer, I have the opportunity to articulate the significance of those experiences through the philosophical concept of faithful witnessing and as part of women of color feminist ethics. We cannot afford to forget that women of color, children, and peoples on the 'underside of modernity' act as faithful witnesses against oppression. It is a tool for survival and resistance and it shapes our knowing and how we produce knowledge. 

In this way, my article on faithful witnessing was a lifetime in the making. 

poco a poco.

little by little.

I was recently chatting with my dear friend Jessica Marie Johnson, who encouraged me to stop hoarding my research and instead share bits and pieces as I complete my book manuscript. Like many first-generation academics I am often guilty of having a white knuckle grip on my work. You shall not pass, or rather, nah.

Though I am not new to blogging, my past ventures have been on centered on travel and fashion, low risk passions. But here I have a platform and I'm looking forward to using this space for monthly updates on research findings and to share more about some of the incredible and understudied literatures by Afro-Latinxs and Equatoguineans. Maybe there will be photos, opinion pieces, o bueno, lo que traiga el viento. 

nos vemos.